BOYB - system of a down

beware people, this post is gonna be all crap.

all crap.

ALL CRAP.

geddit?

and i guess it would be a little bit emoish too.

(eh, has anyone seen me emo before?) :D

LALAALALALALALALA~

after just now's conf with the crew,
everyone got so... um... i dont know how to say.
but its a good thing.
jon asked a question, : Do we all know who we really are?
well anw, i'm not good at elaborating so,
i dont know how to elaborate on that.

and that is what i want to blog about.

i've started with the simplest thing.
i managed to spend some time thinking about everything that has happened this year,
and what i can possibly expect next year,
in terms of everything. EVERYTHING.
family, friends, school, cca...
and i realise that i'm not up to it.
not yet, but not never.

everyone loves the month of december.
everyone can enjoy, relax, play, go shopping, celebrate, etc etc.
but very few people would take december as the month of intensive self-improvement.
well ofcos, its very understandable(sp?).
honestly speaking,
i felt that what jon had said just now was very meaningful.
i should start on self-improving so that when new year comes,
i'll be fresh and ready for what's coming up.

i know its a little too late, but it dosent really matter.
so december shall henceforth, be the month of intensive self-improvement.
okay, maybe not intensive.
(lol intensive is a very strong word.)
self-improvement, in what areas?

i aint saying it, frankly, beacuase i never like to reveal resolutions and stuff like that, its embarassing.

so by the year 2008,
if you do not notice a marked change in me in any aspect,
that means i've failed. (which most probably will happen, hahaha.)

anw,
to those readers that have read my boring/crappy/whatever-else-ish post till here,
you would find that this post is being totally random.
so, sorry.
but nvm that, cos this post is gonna be even more random.

hahaahaha.

youth camp is coming up,
and it has been raining everyday.
(oh i hate monsoon season -.-)
and i'm worried that the rain would spoil EVERYTHING that the crew had planned.
we've spent so much time planning, organising, and stuff like that.
and now, we're changing half of the activities we had planned,
just because of the freakin weather.
so now, we just have to pray hard.

and there's something that has been bothering me after what jon had said.
(jon you owe me one, you made me think about things that i dont want to, after that talk of yours.) :D
ah well,
its actually something so available,
yet hardly anywork has been done on it.
the kind of thing that you happen to be part of,
yet not really proud, or even take notice of.
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if you still haven guessed,
its actually the class im thinking about.
in depth, i would mean the lack of class spirit, 2e1.
i know its already too late to say all this crappy things.
but seriously,
2e1 has no class spirit at all.
take the sentosa outing for instance,
not everyone knows there's an outing.
and even for those who went to the outing,
the girls just did our own things and the boys just play among themselves.

oh shiiiiiiiit la why am i saying all these stuff man.
gawdddd, i suck.

i think i better stop blogging already,
if not i dont know where this post is gonna end.

JON YOU REALLY OWE ME,
I STARTED BLOGGING ALL BECAUSE OF THAT TALK OF YOURS.
AND SEE ALL THESE SHIT THAT I'VE TYPED OUT?
WTH I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY IM DOING THIS.

goodbye.